You are so transparent with me yet I always remained a tinted glass with you
You laid down all your life on me, you trust me
I trust you, yet for some reason I could not pull down the walls I have built all my life
Memories of judgments from people I have confided in still crowd my mind
You told me things you feared would make you lose me yet you trusted that my love was enough
Delivered upon me news that would have driven me away if I did not love you enough
I loved you enough that I assured you of my love in your moments of self exposure
You helped me loosen up, felt the need to clear the tinted glass I always hold on my face
Finally gave in, opened up a piece of my soul on you,
Was hit so bad by your silent judgements and disapproval
You could not even assure me that NOTHING has CHANGED
You said you had nothing to say yet YOUR SILENCE SPOKE A MILLION WORDS
I am wounded as I showed you love when you thought I would run away
I loved you enough to take all news you shared with me,
Yet you ran away when I opened my heart on YOU
© Sizakele Phohleli 11/10/2011