My heart is torn into pieces that can never repair
My heart cannot decide what the saddest part is,
My endless days without you...
That first moment of consciousness when I wake up in the morning...
The reality that you have freed yourself of me...
A part of me withers and dies when I think of what I used to be to you
I wish that I could find a way to the part of you that's lost
When I think of you, my mind speaks of a thousand words
Just not the words I need to hear
Words of loss, words of defeat
I feel so morbid, lost without your presence in my life
How I want to come to terms with the reality that you can never be a part of me
How I want to come to terms with the reality that you do not want to be a part of me
How I want to wake from the perception that you can learn to accept my existence
I have put my heart on mute so it does not cry out loud
I have put shades over my heart so you don’t see how it bleeds
So many times I have tried to burn any memories of what could not be
As I let us burn, I watched our memories burn down my sanctuary
I then strolled through the ashes, and ruins of my happiness and sanity,
Thinking it would miraculously rebuild itself.
Hoping you would return to me